Angry Chair

I was just reading Wyatt's old blogs and "Angry Chair" by Alice in Chains was on the radio. I don't know why but it just pissed me off. Sorry about my language, but it really did. I like that song, but listening to it while reading what my family wrote to Wyatt after he died and all the pain they feel was just more than I could handle. I cried. I hate the fact that I did, but I did. It was more out of fury then sadness though. I get mad at Wyatt. I get really, really mad. That's what I feel. Is that horrible? Sometimes I get so mad at him I scream at him. Well, actually I scream at the empty room, but it's directed at him. Whenever I visit the cemetary I feel good at first and then I just get really, really, really, really upset and mad. I visit the cemetary every time I'm in Dells, it does make me feel better, I like to talk to him there. But when I get angry, I feel like crap. I don't want to be mad at him, but how can I help that? You know? Please don't try to give me advice about this, I obviously don't want it, but I just kind of wanted to rave.