One year later!

Wow, it's been almost a year since I wrote on my blog. Not quite sure why Ginger still has a link to it on her blog...But after looking at all of the links she has, it looks like nobody writes on their blogs anymore. That's kind of sad because a lot of her friends were funny and I enjoyed reading their stories. I on the other hand am not funny and my posts are always hideously boring. I have tons and tons that I could write about but don't really feel like it at the moment. Right now I'm just kinda happy that I remembered my login and password for blogger. Maybe, just maybe, I'll write again in another year.

nothingnew

man alive. i literally have nothing to say. i always think of things when i'm driving along or talking with people but never when i actually sit down and write a blog. so you are all getting a bowl full of nothing. i hope everyone enjoyed it!

Fresh Prince of Bel-Air

Lately I have been having a bout of insomnia and it really stinks. I fall asleep for a few hours and then wake up around 2-3 am and am up until at least 5 and can't catch my breath and get anxiety attacks. People who don't get anxiety don't know what I'm talking about, but it is NOT fun. On Sunday night I felt like I had to consiously take each breath and if I didn't I would fall asleep and not take breaths and die. Everyone knows you subconsiously breath but I was thinking I couldn't do it unless I thought about it. Sometimes I feel like I'm a hypochondriac but then I realize I just have the worst breathing/anxiety problem anyone can imagine. Ugh. Anyway, so while I'm awake at all hours of the night (which does not make work fun the next day, let me tell you!) I have been watching Nick at Nite which has been featuring The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air. Good show. Excellent show actually. I laugh and smile and that makes me feel better. I'm a new Will Smith fan. I signed up for Netflix today.

This weekend

My friend Danielle and her fiance Brian are coming up to the cities tonight to get a mini vacation. I'm very excited to have my friends come visit me again. My last visit from anyone was back in August when Katie, Matt and Erik came up and we went to Valleyfair. I don't have many plans planned out for us yet. I know we're going shopping because I have money burning a hole in my pocket. Don't know if we'll go to Mall of America because 1) I don't know how to get there and 2) It's a bit overrated. And I hate shopping really I just need new jeans. My two favorite pairs have holes all over. And the only jeans I like are really expensive. It's hard for me to write on here because I usually just write on my myspace blog. And I'm crazy girl and don't want everyone reading my thoughts :)

It's been awhile!

Just a guess, but I'm guessing nobody reads this blog anyway. My being MIA for 3 months probably didn't ruin anybodys life. I am bored.

Life is Beautiful

Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Anyone ever heard the song Life is Beautiful by Sixx A.M.? I'm in love with it. That was a sample of the lyrics. I heard it at work today and once again cried. I wonder if these are words Wyatt would have told us had he known how soon his death would come?

Angry Chair

I was just reading Wyatt's old blogs and "Angry Chair" by Alice in Chains was on the radio. I don't know why but it just pissed me off. Sorry about my language, but it really did. I like that song, but listening to it while reading what my family wrote to Wyatt after he died and all the pain they feel was just more than I could handle. I cried. I hate the fact that I did, but I did. It was more out of fury then sadness though. I get mad at Wyatt. I get really, really mad. That's what I feel. Is that horrible? Sometimes I get so mad at him I scream at him. Well, actually I scream at the empty room, but it's directed at him. Whenever I visit the cemetary I feel good at first and then I just get really, really, really, really upset and mad. I visit the cemetary every time I'm in Dells, it does make me feel better, I like to talk to him there. But when I get angry, I feel like crap. I don't want to be mad at him, but how can I help that? You know? Please don't try to give me advice about this, I obviously don't want it, but I just kind of wanted to rave.

Autumn is here

Well, according to the calendar on my desk it doesn't officially start till September 23 (or is it the 30th? I can't tell, they are both on the same space on the calendar). But it feels like it outside. It got really cold over the weekend. I'm not complaining though, I love fall. Love it, love it, love it! I finally get to wear sweaters without everyone making fun of me! Yes, I have some issues with wearing inappropriate clothes for the weather (think parkas in the middle of July). And just sitting at my desk I can sometimes smell the air outside and it just smells like fall. I always get excited at the beginning of every season. Like probably the first snowfall we get I'm gonna be so pumped, but by the end I'm gonna hate it. Just like when summer just started getting hot at first I loved it and now I'm just annoyed with it. But I never get sick of spring or fall. Probably because neither of them are too extreme. So here is to an exciting fall season! THAT WAS SO DORKY.

I'm tough

Well, not really. But I did finally get my wisdom teeth pulled yesterday. They were a little bit sore all day, but I woke up this morning feeling like a champ. Seriously, it doesn't even feel like I'm missing two giant teeth. And giant they are. They asked me if I wanted to keep them, and I sure did. So, they're in a safe, tiny manilla envelope. And they're disgusting!! I take them out every couple hours or so to examine them and imagine them being in my head. It grosses me out, but obviously not too much. I'm morbidly fascinated. Or morbidly obese! (get it, chinch?) Also, I finally got my books for my apprenticeship which I will officially start either next week or the week after. That doesn't sound too official, does it? Uh-oh. Well, I know I've paid and I know I have the books, so it can't be too far out. My friend Katie and her boyfriend and his brother are driving from SD tonight and we're going to Valleyfair tomorrow. I am excited!! I went to Valleyfair last summer and was there for I believe 14 hours. I plan on breaking that record tomorrow. Is that possible? Okay, work is really busy, gotta go!

It takes time

I am living proof of that! I FINALLY figured stuff out in my life. Finally. I got the apprenticeship!! I'll be starting in around a month and my God, do you guys realize what this means?? I'll be working alongside the people that I idolize. I know that sounds pathetic, that I idolize radio DJ's, but I seriously do, and this is my dream and I could not be happier than I am right now. I have to quit my job, but whatever, I wasn't that happy here anyway, it just paid the bills. I can find something else. I found a new apartment that is really nice and sooo cheap. That sounds like an oxymoron, but it really is nice and it is REALLY cheap. I hate the place I live now, but that lease is up in a month anyway, so I'm good to go. Everything seems to be working out, I don't want to get ahead of myself, but I'm just happy! And my wisdom teeth have been bothering the heck out of me (think oozing sores in the back of your mouth 24/7) so I finally made a dentist appointment to get them pulled. It's about time! I'm gonna get a check up and find out I have 20 cavities too. Joy. But once it's all said and done I will feel much better! Anyway, that was a better update than most I post, so there ya go!